girly (???!!!!!)

for the first time in a very LONG time, i get to have a girly morning!

(i am in shock, confused and struggling with what to do!)

hubby is home today watching little one.  big one is off at school.

i got to take the dog for a walk already--he's a boy...but i am still counting it as a girly moment.

i am headed out the door in a bit to meet a friend

--no kids

--at a mall

--going to have coffee

awesome!

there will be housecleaning this afternoon

(i guess you can call that a girly moment)

company over tonight--excited!

i am a bit giddy about it all.

everything. now.

God has been reminding me a lot lately about how i am to bring every little thing to Him.  everything.  not some of my stuff, not a majority, but every last ounce.  He has been reminding me of this as some things have felt so overwhelming that my only choice is to cry out to Him.  the difficulties have not gone away or suddenly become 'easy', but i know that there is a God that knows each intricate detail of my life and that He (and He alone) can not only handle each detail, but is Master over them all.  i trust Him with everything because He is a God who loves infinitely, who has paid the ultimate price just so we can have a relationship together, who is holy and sovereign and over all.  i give it all to Him.  today.  now.

thanks

today, i feel especially grateful for good friends, good neighbors, family and friends that love unconditionally.  what a blessing.

maybe we'll celebrate early

my grandpa's birthday is next wednesday. (next week)

the hard thing, hospice is coming in the next few days.

i hope we get to celebrate.

rainy day

it's raining and raining.  my dog keeps going over to the window, longingly looking outside and whimpering.  pacing and chewing on things he should not be chewing on to curb boredom.  we've played fetch and given a treat or two.  colin's walked him through the house a few times.  he came with us on a ride.  and it's not even noon yet.  he's just aching to get outside.  i think i am too.

(i did let colin stomp through puddles this morning.  a wet toddler is far easier to clean up than a wet dog!  smells much better too. :) )

just wonderful

colin is going to be my cassanova.  we were at the store and i was trying on a few things (gotta love end of the season sales!).  i had three dresses i wanted to try on.  got the first one on and i hear from colin:  "oh mom.  that looks just wonderful on you."  i smiled and got a little teary--too sweet.  went on to dress number two.  "well...you could go dance with dad in that one."  and number three.  "mom, you need to get a dress.  it's just wonderful."  thought it was just too sweet.

(i hate to admit that i did not get a dress today.  i did find two shirts though :) )

defying all laws of known physics

colin is entering that territory of needing a small nap, but really, really (and i mean really) does not like to take them.  even though you can see that he is wiped beyond exhaustion, he just will not crash.  every few days, i let him go without--and we all pay the price.

on the days where there is no nap, he sleeps TERRIBLE during the night.  waking up every several minutes crying.  tossing and turning.  no solid rest.

WHY IS THIS???  his little body is so tired, yet he won't fall into that deep sleep.  this defies logic to me--his body is tired, sleep should be deep and good.  or so one would think.  that's colin--defying reason!

no nap today.  guessing i'll be a little sleepy tomorrow...

a new leaf

these past few weeks, i feel like i've taken a beating.  extra and different work hours with lots of last-minute things, lots of difficult news and hospital visits, frustration and tears...feeling like you can do very little right.

i'm thankful it's the start of a new week.  i'm needing fresh and shiny.  i'm ready to turn over a new leaf.  looking for the silver lining. ready for a bright, sunshiny day and any other proverbial saying that says "i'm ready for a fresh start."  bring that on.

jigsaw puzzle

i have had all kinds of events and things happen in my life that have made me ask the question: "God, why in the world would you have me go through this, learn that, ache through this, laugh through that...?"  there have been moments where i have gotten to use one of those things or moments and it makes sense.  there have been times where a new opportunity presents itself and it could only present itself because i was ready AFTER going through all the stuff.

lately, it has been feeling like a series of things that don't necessarily go together--but i know that somehow they will eventually.  i'm ready for the eventually.  i want to see how these pieces come together.  i'm looking forward.

what would my mother say?

supper tonight: milkshake--carmel to be exact.

question asked: how's supper tonight?

carter's reply: "beyond AWESOME!"

colin's reply: "can i have more?"