good friday

good friday is always a day where i am not sure if i should feel ecstatic because of the spiritual significance or in mourning because of the deep cost that Jesus endured on my behalf.  it is a day where i come before God in humility because i realize just a taste of what He was willing to do to have a relationship with me.  i cry because i realize how unworthy i am and how selfless and complete His love is.  i feel so small and insignificant and so loved and adored in the same breath.  

i do not want to go about just as if it is any other day, because the day represents something so profound, life-changing, eternity-changing... i am looking forward to our church service this evening--just to worship a God that loves so completely, so lavishly.  all i can do is bow down and offer all of me back to Him in return.