google experiment, take one

i am completely amused at what pops up in the google ads with each post and refresh.
today, it would appear that i am a blonde hacker that is going to bible college, who simply must see the latest harry potter flick.

let us experiment...
i am going to type a random list of things that i enjoy and we shall see what google adsense brings to us.

here we go:
(in no particular order of importance)

books, nature, gift giving, goldendoodle dogs, grey's anatomy on thursday evenings, dr. pepper, chocolate, down blankets, my life is good warm socks, coffee, dear friends that love me as i am, crocheting scarves, coupons, avoiding housework, mountains, fireplaces, taking photographs, playing with my kids, giggles, quiet moments, cornhusker football, movies, my itouch, family, long drives, long walks, exploring, Jesus, food, music, learning, compassion international, helping people i have never met, trying new things, shopping with a purpose, target, my husband, listening to my son play the violin, listening to my other son on the piano, anything with caramel in it, quiet evenings at home, hearing about my family's day, pantene hairspray, lipstick, traveling, creativity and all of its' expressions...

i think this will be an experiment that will need to be researched regularly.
now, let us observe the outcomes.

here we go...

sometimes, i am a planner. sometimes, i love to just let things 'happen' and roll with whatever comes down the pike. i like both. i like the fusion of the two--some expected things and some opportunity to improvise in the moment. i am unsure if that is 'normal' or not. but i digress...

when it came to our children, we did not 'plan' them or try to have them come during a certain time of the year or have them a certain time frame apart. they came just when God wanted them to come. i am trusting God's timing, but i do admit that sometimes, i wish our timing was a bit different...

our youngest son's birthday falls a week before thanksgiving. our oldest is right at the new year. and in between is thanksgiving, our niece's birthday, christmas, new year's, and there are extended family and friends' birthdays and anniversaries sprinkled throughout that time frame as well.

i love the celebrating and time with family and friends. i love planning surprises and i LOVE giving gifts. what i struggle with is that it all hits in the same five weeks. no spreading it out evenly throughout the remaining weeks of the year. honestly, sometimes it feels as though it is a season of gift gluttony without the opportunity to truly be grateful for and enjoy it all.

i pray that my kids know how special they are and how loved they are as their birthday celebrations are surrounded by so much chaos. i pray that they know how blessed they are as they are showered not only with gifts, but by the love shown by their family and friends as they travel to come celebrate and spend time together. i pray that they appreciate the thoughtfulness shown their way by others and that they reciprocate and multiply that their whole life long. in essence, i do not want them to get lost in the frenzy of errands, obligitory gift giving, and 'necessary' traditions. i want them to celebrate and be grateful for who God made them to be. i want them to be aware and active in recognizing and celebrating what God is doing in others. i want them to be intentional about slowing down and appreciating the moment, rather than being overwhelmed by everything that is swirling around them.

if i could plan anything, i would plan for my kids to live life the way Jesus wants them to live. i will have to see what comes down the pike...

a blonde moment

yes, literally.

while i sit here with my laptop and my cup of coffee, my hair is bathing in a solution that is returning it to its, ahem, natural color. while my husband disputes my 'natural' haircolor, i would like to state here that i have always been blonde... until i colored my hair the day after i graduated from high school. (that was when it accidentally ended up a drab shade of olive. as in green. i LOVE green...just not in my hair. after my mother was rightfully furious with me and we visited a salon that could do wonders, my hair became the 'anne of green gables' auburn i was striving for.) that color gradually faded and i entered college being the blonde that i had always been. years of coloring later, i was working through a difficult time and thought that i should radically change my haircolor as a way to build my esteem or express my frustration or something. DARK auburn with highlights. i felt evil. seriously. lesson learned from that experience: stick with your natural color. you feel much better.

and here we are on this november morning. so, today is golden blonde. we are approaching the winter and i am not going for the super sunny look. i have been champagne blonde, ultra light blonde, ultra light sun blonde, honey blonde, light golden blonde, frosted blonde...i have even done that bleach packet straight up. golden should be good today. that even sounds good. and least i will be encouraged when i look at the mirror and there are not pesky darker roots taunting me. (and those few emerging greys. grrrrrr.)

am i covering up who i am now as i alter my haircolor with chemicals that are probably toxic? i guess i don't look at it that way. i look at it more as maybe holding on to a piece of my past that is a physical part of my identity...even though i generally disdain the typical blonde stereotypes. as i have worked through a few different hair shades, i will refer to that oh-so-typical line... i have had more fun as a blonde.

so honey, argue all you want, this is my natural color. :)

(yikes! look at the clock! need to rinse the toxic sludge off before it turns an entirely unexpected color!)

randomness

i am feeling rather random today. it is one of those i-need-to-try-and-get-a-variety-of-loose-ends-tied-up-and-some-other-things-started kind of day. so...i shall bore you with my list here, hoping that it helps me to remember and prioritize and motivate.

i have already updated and balanced the checkbook. something i should have done near the end of last week, but i can now say that i have that task completed (until it needs to be done again). i paid some bills and the dog was thrilled that he got to go along for the ride. i cheated birthday baking at the end of the week by ordering cupcakes from our grocery store. they can decorate in ways that i am incapable of, and most importantly, they can create what my birthday boy was asking for. thank goodness! i was getting nervous that i would have to find a way to recreate things in frosting. eek. i got caught up on this week's bible study homework that we will be discussing tomorrow. i guess the silver lining is that it will all be fresh in my mind since i procrastinated the majority of it to today... i took a few quiet moments with my cup of coffee and sent off some quick facebook notes to friends i wanted to encourage. (i probably should have taken the time to write notes, but quick facebook jottings are better than nothing, right?) i got the clean dishes put away and the dirty ones into the dishwasher. i cleaned the toothpaste left in the sink this morning. twice. (two boys who brushed their teeth at different times...)

as you can read right now, i am in process of blogging. i really want to get better at writing more regularly. blog. journal. notes to friends. letters to our compassion kids. whatever. i feel convicted to do it more. i feel better afterwards and there is a little less swirling around in my head. so, writing (via blog format today): check.

i need to exercise in some form. thinking it will be taking the dog for a lovely autumn stroll. wait...let me rephrase. thinking it will be trying to keep up with the dog as he is overly anxious to get going as fast as he can, as far as he can, for as long as he can on this lovely autumn day. need to mentally and physically prepare for that one.

i need to find someone to talk to about the next step in the job pursuit.

*update*
last week i did interview for a position that i applied for back at the start of august, had a physical for the position, got the okay for the position, got the ID tag for the position. good news! right?
well...the position begins in an on-call type fashion, but because i have not worked in this exact role before, i am not qualified for all the on-call positions i am receiving notices for.
so...i have a job that i am not able to work at yet. confused yet? i am!
today's goal: i need to find someone to talk to about the next step in the job pursuit. i have been trying to schedule an appointment with a person that i think can help, but she has been out of the office and out of town...and i am not even sure if she is the person i am supposed to talk to. goal is to eliminate at least a hint of the confusion today. good luck!

my youngest is turning six at the end of this week. exciting! i have been feeling terribly guilty because the weekend is overflowing with things that will compete with a birthday celebration. today is trying to reschedule and reorganize so there is some time to focus on a wonderful, thoughtful, creative, high-energy, brand new six year old. (and i need to get presents wrapped. at least the shopping is done!) with the birthday comes company, which means wow. i need to clean my house! i will probably not dig in too deep today into the cleaning because too much can happen in the course of a week. but...it is on the radar. dust bunnies should be on high alert.

and i should start thinking about what i am going to cook for supper. i am notorious at creating things right at five o'clock. thinking i should try to be a bit more intentional...although some of my favorites have come from my five o'clock planning. thinking tonight will involve pasta in some form.

and my youngest and i began writing a book this summer together. about peanut butter. over the weekend, we both were thinking about it and decided that we need to finish it. so...i hope to find a smidge of time today to pull up the document, rework some wording, and ponder how we shall illustrate. shall he draw the artwork? (there is NO way that i am doing that...his drawings are far better than mine! i can conceive some ideas, but have no skills for following through.) shall we take pictures and he can be our 'star'? do we leave the artwork and just go for something abstract? hmmmmmm. we have work to do!

i do have my daily taxi routine to fulfill as well. double-school pick-ups. thankful that it is gorgeous weather today after last friday's rain and slush-fest.

okay. i know there is plenty to fit into today... now, to go tackle something.

after lunch.

letting autumn in

turtlenecks and fleece vests, thick and fuzzy socks, down blankets...
all necessities because i want to avoid turning on the heat so i can let the autumn through the windows.

(and i will admit that my toes are frigid, but so enjoying the crisp air. :) )