i am not freaking...seriously!

okay, my monday morning started out at 3:34 am with carter sharing how he puked all over his bed and clothes.  it was followed shortly with colin joining us in bed because he was having bad dreams.  (you can imagine the sleep that took place before the alarm went off at 6:15)

this is one of the most stressful times of year at work.  our christmas presentation is this week on top of the normal services.  there are lots of behind the scenes extras and i know that if i do not do my role effectively, it makes things far more stressful for not only me later in the week, but many others.  

things did not go at all as planned this morning.  hubby stayed home with kids in the morning so i could work and then we needed to switch for the afternoon.  there was a training meeting at work this morning that i completely forgot about and all  kinds of little things that took far longer than they normally would just because of the multiple things happening this week.

we have major things going every single night this week.  practices, rehearsals, concerts...  i still don't have sitters lined up like i need to.  i did not make it to the grocery store like i needed to today because i needed to stay home with a sick boy.

now...here's the kicker.  i am not freaking...at all.  i know God has it all in His hands.  He will use me if i am open and willing to be His vessel.  He cannot use me when i am holding onto all the little pieces, trying to control and manipulate them to fit my way.  i came home from work and did not worry about a thing.  (even when e-mails and phone calls came)  i know it is God's.  

i am enjoying my boys--wanted to snuggle and talk together.  we have carter's homework packet to look at together and colin wants to read car story after car story.

(carter even said i can go blog and catch up on e-mails because he can get going on his math page.  whoa.  that is a miracle!)

no freaking...just letting God do His thing.